Late nights

I can't stand our political system. And it bothers me that I even care about how much I can't stand our political system. I just want to do my job well, be a good mother, wife, friend... I am so tired of pretty words that mean nothing. I want someone to stand up for the normal people - the tired, trying-to-understand-all-sides and still voting (although for what, I'm not sure). If my candidate doesn't win, my vote doesn't even count. I want a real democratic election.

15 years ago...

Lost my Daddy. He wasn't perfect, but there have been so many times in those 15 years I have wanted to call him, see him, share something with him. And I can't. If I take solace in my eventual END, I have to take solace in his - or at least his idea of heaven - that it's different for everyone - it's what everyone needed when they were on earth to be the best version of themselves- that they don't have to be ashamed, embarrassed about or apologetic about. Missing him right now.